My insecurities have been getting the best of me lately.
Registered for next semester: Western Civilization, Probability & Statistics, Cultures and Values, Intro to Philosophy, and Principles of Sociology. So should I jump into the ocean now or…?
wow I look like shit today
and fuck you Pandora for playing all the songs tonight that make my heart sink
and despite the fact my body is mine, I can never quite mirror the way you made it move.
I just want today to be over.
School is stressing me out so much.
The more I get into this degree, the more I realize I don’t actually want to be a teacher. I definitely want to be in a school environment, but I want to be a counselor.
That means finishing my 2 year degree as a psychology major, which is fine, but then going another 2 years for psychology, and then counseling for 4 years. I can’t afford that. I really want to do this but the idea of graduating and then sitting around paying off loans for years to come isn’t so enticing.
:(
So young and full of running, tell me where is that taking me?
Just a great figure eight or a tiny infinity…
Do you ever wish you could go back and do things differently? I know mistakes are supposed to be lessons learned but it doesn’t always feel that way.
And I know you should live without regrets… but boy do I have a few right now.
You can’t expect me to be fine, I don’t expect you to care.
So I asked my mom if she actually watched the John Mayer interview on Ellen:
Mom: “Yeah, now I think he’s even more of a douche.”
Me: “NO Mom, this interview was to prove that he’s no longer a douche!”
Mom: “He’s a douche.”
Me: “HATER’S GON’ HATE.” *walks away*
I haven’t seen Russ in 2 weeks. Bailed on me last night and this Sunday I just got stuck babysitting.
I don’t even know if it’s worth it anymore. I don’t feel like he even wants to see me.
Aaaaand I feel shitty again.
NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY
